.⭑.MonthlySummary.⭑.

January

This month was pretty nice and chill. Cool start to the new year. I've been healing and going out more which is nice for a change. Last year I was really depressed and abandoned myself.

THE BAD:

The fire: Well, my backyard neighbors' house caught on fire (my biggest fear is fires). I think it was the electrical box. Luckily, everyone is okay. I was so panicked, I couldn't sleep the whole entire night. Me and Chow slept at my dad’s and took the next day off work.
Political & Economic State of the World:

Trump's first month in office has been a tragedy! Mass deportations, his butt buddy Elon Musk, and TikTok taken down then brought back up.
Tragic California wildfires :(
Airplanes all over the US keep crashing..wth is going on dude?!

THE GOOD:

I got my driver's license back yay! My new pic is uggo, but whatever.
Bail money from 4 years ago will be returned to me this year yay.
Lots of progress on my website and my art :)

Started and completed 1 zine (I don't want you anymore zine)
Finished my homepage, added a zine page, and a journal page!
Played guitar maybe 2 times lol.

MISC: (Music, Shows, Media, Fun times with friends)

I went to 2 shows in January woot woot! I saw Molchat Doma, Sextile, and COLD CAVE.
I watched 3 new movies:

COMPANION (in theatre with J, H, E, & V)
Mysterious Skin(2004)
Lookback

I went to the club a few times, and I also went bowling and then to Chili’s with my friends for the first time ever! Good, clean, fun :)

February

OMG this new year is being so kind and sweet to me. February I spent a lot of time with my friends instead of missing out. It feels like for the first time in my life, I'm living.

Art I made:

I made a valentines gift for M*****. I decorated the box soo cute! see the pic at the bottom VVVV
HOMESHAKE inspired Zine, HORSIE album. 3 new friend collage pages

I been playing guitar a bit this past week, my callous is building back up! slowly but surely B)

New things:
I watched "Anora" eh mid movie. 5/10. Plot didn't make any effing sense.
Visited Lake Mead with J, E, V, & H. Vanz and I tried to share a kayak but I suppose our combined weight was overkill..mostly me LMFAO.
I drank too much the night prior and made myself SICK. I was throwing up n shii.
Me n freak bobs went to some pirate bar and got free shots of vodka.
I went on a picnic with friends, Eli wasn't there :( but we painted and drank wine. It was so cute and fun and the weather was just perfect.
I tried HOUSTON TX HOT CHICKEN that shit was so fucking good I ate it twice in like a 3-day span. I did the same thing with birria tacos they were so fucking god damn good I was moaning while I ate them. It's been so LAWNG since I had them holy SHIT. xD

MISC:

Sadgirl with Los Emptys, and Peeling Flesh.
COULDA BEEN LOVE release on Valentines Day. That shit so FUNNY lmfao. I'm excited for the next episode. Gonna go watch with the gang. :)

March

Spring time yay!

I got a tv, so i watched hella movies xD:

Manic: this movie was very bleak and relatable. I cried 10/10
Family: I saw this on tiktok, it's about jugallos. It made me laugh so much. 10/10
Hellraiser: Creepy asl. Pervert vibes. 10/10
I believe in Unicorns: I was sleepy when i saw this. Also very bleak and relatable lil indie film. 8/10
Smile 2: 11/10 I love SMILE and SMILE2 FTW!!! One of the creepiest movies i've ever watched.

I've been feeling really lonely. I miss M* so much :( I wish i could see him again.
Me and the gals went to an ice cream parlor that had a secret bar in the back
I went to container park, 702bin and tried a "Scooby Doo" drink for the first time. shit was bomb as fugggg
Also tried their hot cheeto grilled cheese it was so good!
I've been working on re-vamping my room. I got a record/guitar holder and a desk hutch. I'd like a new dresser and kitty tower
I went to the snow for the first time since i was 12. Drove Jans car to Outback Steakhouse.

April

April has been full of changes.t(-_-)t

Well for starters, Chow had an emergeny Vet visit. Shes okay now, but she got spayed and the healing process sucked. She had a cut on her lip and paw as well :(
The vet was nearly $600 so I can't get a couch like I wanted to, but that's okay.
I got god damn bronchitis and have been sick literally all month long. I had popcorn lungs and genuinely couldn't breathe for a bit, but im alright now. I still have a cough and I can't remember what my real voice sounds like. I'm congested as fucking hell. I was on like 4 different medications smh
Speakng of meds, I started taking PILLS. Vitamin B-12, Collagen, Multi-vitamin and some sleepy time ones. It hasn't even been a week yet, but I hope they help with my dogshit immune system.
The last new thing I started was ....DA GYM. I been going to the gym with Eli for the past week. It's not as scary as I made it out to be in my head
I finally visited the Jazz bar with Damien it was really sweet and I would go again. Other than that I really didn't go out much. I went to PTs to play pool and that's about it. It's fine, I'm broke anyway. :)
I got a Murder House shirt I been eying for a while. I prolly shouldn't have gotten it but it was perfect for Easter... I love it! I wish I could afford to buy myself more things. I need new shoes for the gym, pants, all kinds of stuff. I hope my financial situation gets better after all this legal stuff subsides. I hate paying all this money for stupid bullshit.
I SCORED MAC DEMARCO TICKETS AYEEEEE. Im gonna see him in August (alone)
Oh also I dyed my hair. Red chunky messy highlights its so cute! it faded already lol
ART UPDATES: I started a new charcoal piece, it's coming along well :3. I also started a new zine about media. I haven't been playing guitar :( i have to pick and choose my hobbies these days. time is so limited on a day to day basis.
MOVIES I WATCHED:

Buffallo 66: The director is so weird and creepy. Gave it a 6 for Christina the poor girl. It was cool but I couldn't help but be weirded out. 6/10
Rewatched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. It's actually hella sad. Re-watching movies as an adult is so weird I have such a different perspective on things. 8/10
MAY(2001)9/10: This movie is so cringe in the best possible way. It does a great job of making me feel uncomfortable.
I rewatched THE ROOM and cried lol 9/10

May

May..oh my;.;

Started the month off pretty bad. ok so I got too drunk at cornish.. walked home alone, and lost my phone. Thank GOD someone found it and returned it omg my whole life is on there. This was at the start of the month and I honestly haven't drank much in public since xD
Bail bond money got returned to me and I basially used it all on vet bill womp womp. Also paid for Vivi to get spayed so that D can leave his dogs with dad ;.;
I like boxing now hehe I watched a game with Mike and Vanz and it was actually pretty entertaning. 10/10 Would do again
My brother left town. I got to spend some time with him before he left. He'll be back in the fall. ;.;
My hair was so perfect and vibrant red and i FUCKED It up by mixing blue into the red and thinking it would be purple. DUMBASS IDIOT ALERT!! cuz it fucking looks BLACK now t(-_-(t. Im gonna wash it every day and try to remove it with some vitamin C powder xD I want this shit purple, then blue, then GREEEEEN!
M* came back to town... SUPER unexpectedly literally it was sort of a shock. We spent some time together, it was really nice.. but bittersweet. We walked around downtown, shouted songs in my car, and went record shopping like the good old days. He took his cat back and now we don't talk. C'est la vie I suppose.
I got 3 new records this month: CARSEAT HEADREST, BAR ITALIA (I manifested it fr), and COLD CAVE (first pressing and its a beaut. Amazing gold and sparkly. I never had a sparkly vinyl before i LOVE IT)
I watched CLOWN IN A CORNFIELD at the drive-in with my friends, it was boring. 3/10
I got to see 28 DAYS LATER in theatre for the first time ever it was such a cool experience! I went with Mike n Vanz :3 The quality was so booty, but as expected lol. The flower scene literally looked like an abstract painting it was lowkey beautiful xD. Got me thinking of how quickly technology has advancned in the past 20 years.
Breathalyzer is GONE thankg GAWD. Dealing with some financial issues with the compnay tho. Waiting on the fuckass DMV ARRHHHGHHH
My other little brother who lives in CALI is going to visit for the summer yay yay I'm so excited. I haven't seen him in over a year! He will be here on June 6th and I'm going to be spending a lot of time at my dads house with my family