Poetry

The fire it burns so fast the heat we both knew wouldn't last you're a lie and i'm a cheat feels as if we're enemies shower you with my hate tears and snot streaming down your face forget what I said the very next day

I agreed to share a piece But you swallowed me whole Now vengeance lives inside of me And I've gotta let it go To find myself living In a whole new world
I’ll learn to live within The spaces between breaths I think it’s finally time Yeah, I've earned the right to rest Although my heart is heavy I know I'll find myself again

Empty promises and idle words You're gonna get what you deserve All of your words are without form Now I can’t love you anymore Make me doubt myself till im confused Downplay what you put me through Godspeed to this severance You'll know soon what I meant

At the age of 6 I learned how not to cry I discovered how to move tears Away from my eyes I took the hurt and just swallowed it whole It made me feel strong Like i had some control Out of nowhere it got too hard to breathe But I can take a punch Thats nothing new to me My brain ran so fast and so far away Until it detached from my body Now they don’t communicate

Once I start, I just can’t stop And if i stop it's hard to get back up It's like this every day With everything i do Seeing life in black and white Has left me feeling blue

Tucked into a bed Weeping out to God Try to block the memories Turn the T.V . on Curled up into myself On the tile floor Crying out for anyone The body keeps the score

Running along as I kept a straight face Until I saw something that I just couldn’t shake My favorite shortcut to the finish line Well, it somehow disappeared Now I got nowhere to go cuz I was on that trail for years My desperate attempt to avoid the terrain Left me rugged and rough Yeah, I've got no escape Now everyone will know They will see that I'm senseless Pretty soon they’ll all realize That I've lost my direction My pathetic attempt to avoid the terrain Left me lost and confused And only I am to blame Now I'm stuck on this path That I led myself down I can no longer run I just walk with a frown

Watching you get clean It's a really weird thing cannot express my feelings I know that you’re tired I know you’re really sleepy I’ll buy you coca-cola and whatever else you’re needing I’m glad you’re not pretending I can say “I know it’s tough” But I'll never know the feeling Of really giving up After this many years Your brains already changed I'm scared you’ll never ever be the same Don't apologize to me I know it’s gonna stink I just wish that you’d actually learn something Dope sick on the couch I knew it wouldn't last Always bring my hopes up Just to make me crash

Tomorrows my birthday and I wish you'd reach out I had a dream that you stopped by my house you knocked on the window just like the last time you asked me again to give you a ride and I did and I did We stopped to get liquor like we always do but the stores were all closed and it ruined our moods I forget how everything felt except the feeling of your bones on my fingertips here's goodbye to twenty-six

This would've been our second march together very glad it didn't last forever thinking about you a lot man I know we can't talk I wanna wipe my hands on your shirt after washing the dishes I like that little smirk on your face when I do stupid shit you were my best friend how can I handle this? I want to unblock you and ask where you are can we forget what we've been through and all that's happened this far? just live in the moment